You are just a channel, you are not meant to retain it.
As long as you continue to see yourself as a channel, the resources will keep flowing.
The gift given to you isn't meant for you but for the world to benefit from it, that's where your reward comes from.

Give, and you will receive. Your gift will return to you in full—pressed down, shaken together to make room for more, running over, and poured into your lap. The amount you give will determine the amount you get back.”

Luke 6 vs 38